Monday, January 09, 2012

Umm.....So it has been a while!

I haven’t fallen off the face of the earth! It has been so long since I updated that I have decided I am not going to try to recap the last year or so of my life! That would be too daunting! I am not really sure why I don’t journal more, except maybe I was overwhelmed by the idea of trying to recap. Duh, just don’t do it!

I do still read journals and check them each and every day. So, to those that still update…yeah! I read them!

2012. Am I the only person who cannot believe that it is already 2012? I mean, seriously. It feels like it was just yesterday that we were scared of the dreaded Y2K?!?!? I totally get what they mean by “time flies” as you get older. It totally does! Scott and I were just talking last night about how long we have had this little table thing. I remember vividly putting it together in my dad’s apartment in Michigan. So, I was a senior in high school. So, Scott says…that table is about 18 years old and I about died. In fact, I just had to check the math again. Surely I haven’t been out of high school for 18 years. But, sadly….he is right! OH MY! This whole paragraph makes me laugh….

God is so very good to me. Do you ever just stop and think, as we go about our super busy days, just how blessed we are? I know that it is very easy for me to get caught up in a self-pity-party (especially these days) but I am really trying to make a conscious effort to stop that party before it starts and focus on how much He has blessed me. Way more than I would ever have imagined in my wildest dreams!

So…my health journey is still in progress. I was diagnosed with Auto-Immune Hepatitis in April of last year. They started me on prednisone and told me I would be on it for about 6 months. Well, here we are 9 months later and I am still on it. Boo! I am also on another drug that I will be on for the rest of my life. So, of course there are complications from the medicines (now) and lots of risks for more (later) and of course, I am still not feeling great. So, I continue to go to the specialist and continue to go get blood drawn regularly and just continue to trust that He is in control of the situation! Some days I just wonder if I will ever feel “normal” again! Then, I think that maybe a lot of this is just because I am getting older and “normal” is relative! Scott has been super supportive (and scared) throughout all of this. One night, out of the blue to him…because he doesn’t live in my head….I told him that if anything ever happened to me that he needs to remarry because he can’t raise the kids by himself. It freaked him out, but it is one of those things we hadn’t talked about and I thought we should! I guess that I need to invite him into my head more often because then he wouldn’t be so freaked out! LOL

The kids are great. I mean, they are really, really great. God has certainly had His protective hand on our family because one of the drugs that I am really suppresses my immune system….and so I have to be cautious to try to stay as germ-free as possible. Well, the kids have been the healthiest they have ever been since I was diagnosed. That has been wonderful because that complication could be really bad for all of us! So, aside from the constant bickering and “sibling love”…..they are great!

Isaac is thriving in 5th grade and has become quite the social butterfly. I love that boy for so many reasons….one of which is that he has such an awesome personality. No wonder everyone loves him and wants to be his friend! I cannot believe that he has a girlfriend (it will be 2 months on the 16th, he will tell you…LOL) and that this is his last year in elementary school. *GASP* Next year I will have a child in middle school. How did that happen?!?!??!

Faith is such a joy….it is so much fun watching her grow into the person that God created! If there has ever been a child that you cannot tell them what to do…it is Faith. What I mean is….if you tell her that she “can’t” do something, she will prove you wrong! She will try and try and try again until she does it….like zip-lining last year at camp or ice-skating or memorizing a big block of scripture. So far, it seems to be channeled in the right direction….so lots of prayers are coveted as we hope it continues to be channeled correctly! We bought all of the kids Bibles for Christmas. Hers is going to be worn out before the end of the month because she wants to read it all the time. She is working on memorizing the books of the Bible right now along with Isaac. I dare-say, she will get it done first and then Isaac will be so mad! LOL I ‘heart’ her!!!! She has such a funny sense of humor too! One night we were watching TV and a commercial came on for “Say Yes to the Dress” and the bride was a bit older. Faith looked at me and said….”She is obviously getting RE-Married!” She cracks me up!

Gracie is such a DIVA….but our lives would not be complete with her…maybe less filled with screaming and hitting and bossing, but not complete! LOL No, she is getting better about stuff like that, but she definitely still wants things done HER way and in HER time! We (Scott, me, Isaac & Faith) have all created this monster…so we need to learn how to fix it! LOL But there are lots of times when it is so very sweet how much fun she and Faith have playing together and imagining things. She loves preschool and loves for her big brother to help her with “her letters” and anything else that he will help her with. She also has a wild-spirit….the other night I saw her full-moon when Isaac made her mad about something. Oh dear lord, what am I in for? And where did she learn that from? Oh, that’s right…..the very same big brother! I can assure you that Scott and I do NOT walk around mooning people! LOL

Well, I guess that is good enough for my first entry in forever! I hope to be back soon, but please don’t hold your breath!

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